Students: Putting My Transcripts Where My Mouth Is

For years, I’ve told students that in the grand scheme thing grades don’t matter. I firmly believe that traditional grades are no more an indication of what someone knows than is eye color. Yet, we’ve all been judged as people by these letters on our transcripts. They’ve kept us from being permitted to accomplish certain objectives, all the while with the judges knowing, but not admitting, that grades are in no way standardized and essentially mean nothing. They act as a filter from having to dig deeper into our individual competences, strengths, and weaknesses. After twenty-one years of teaching, I still feel this way and until I adopted standards-based grading I always kept the arbitrariness of traditional grades in mind. Professional accreditation agencies insist on having our transcripts on file, which to me merely amplifies the notion that despite the ideal that higher education is the same everywhere, as it should be, it really isn’t. A letter, an A for example, on a community college transcript carries no consideration next to that very same A on a Harvard transcript and we all know this. It’s one of the many dirty little secrets of higher education. Higher education is as much about politics, arbitrary rankings, and aggrandizement as it is about providing a learning environment. Okay, I’m jaded but people who know me already know that. Anyway, I have also threatened over the years to post my own undergraduate and graduate transcripts online and I have finally decided to do just that, right here. I have removed certain personal information but have otherwise not edited anything.

Undergraduate Transcript 1/2
Undergraduate Transcript 1/2
Undergraduate Transcript 2/2
Undergraduate Transcript 2/2
Graduate Transcript
Graduate Transcript

I want students to understand a few things about transcripts.

  • Transcripts are a reflection only of the past, and do not represent what you may or may not know (whatever that means) now or in the future. I would also argue that they also probably didn’t accurately reflect what you did or didn’t know then, only how you performed on some arbitrary tasks.
  • Just because your transcripts say you may not be competent, they have no way of showing how you’ve changed, grown, or learned since they were recorded.
  • Accreditation agencies and many employers require transcripts to be on file and open to inspection by any number of people who are not qualified to evaluate them. Why keep transcripts secret? They’re nothing to be ashamed of.
  • When I look at a transcript that shows all As and a perfect 4.0 GPA, I immediately think, “This person didn’t have to work for it.” I know that’s a blanket generalization, but it’s what comes to mind for me. Remember that people are not born knowing anything about physics or anything else. Everything academic is learned, and learning requires struggle, something I have only recently seen publicly admitted among colleagues. I was always told that learning is easy for talented people. What crap!
  • As a student now, I would much rather take a course from someone who really struggled to understand the material instead of from someone who whizzed right through it. Only then can the instructor empathize with the learning process as it exists for the vast majority of students who experience it.
  • For me personally, every course on my transcripts is part of the story of my life at that time. I can remember every class I took and every professor (maybe not the name, but definitely how the course was facilitated and how I felt about the course at the time. The “at the time” part is important, because I misjudged a few things back then.
  • Certain courses are of personal value to me. My obsession during high school and undergraduate was celestial mechanics. The only, and I emphasize ONLY, reason I chose to attend UNC-CH was that at the time, it was the only college in the state that offered a separate major in astronomy (as opposed to a minor in astronomy) and was the only college that offered a course in celestial mechanics taught by one of the “celebrities” in the field. Morris Davis had just officially retired when AST131 was finally put on the schedule, and I was determined to ace that course. Dr. Davis was one of the professors I met when I came to UNC-CH to look around early in my senior year of high school. He was also one of the few who took my interests seriously and encouraged them. He even arranged for me to visit the U.S. Naval Observatory during the summer of 1987 so I could meet my (at the time) heroes in the Nautical Almanac Office. As you can see, I met that goal and no one can ever take that away from me. To my knowledge, that was also the last time AST131 was ever offered at UNC-CH. What an honor to have taken my most cherished course from a player in the field for his last class! It almost makes me cry to think about it. Oh, and by the way, one of the reasons I got an A- in the course was that I’d studied much of the material on my own as an obsession. There wasn’t much in the course that I’d not seen before. I had studied Gaussian and Laplacian orbit determination, elementary celestial mechanics, and the creation of ephemerides for comets and asteroids. This, I suspect, is what many students in physics mistake for learning in the classroom. In other words, I think most of the people who effortlessly breeze through do so because of prior experience with the content. Woe to those who are seeing it for the first time, but those are the students I think we should be targeting because they are the majority.
  • My calculus grades are interesting. At the time, UNC-CH required four semesters of calculus. I got an A in the first semester because it was nearly a word for word repeat of my high school calculus course, same textbook (Thomas and Finney) and all. I got a D in each of the following three semesters, the first of which was taught by a a then graduate student who is now employed by the UNC-CH math department as a course coordinator. The third and fourth semesters were taught by fully tenured professors, but the courses did not contain the material described in the course catalog, at least not to the extent that they were helpful to me as an astronomy major. In one of them, the professor departed from the textbook and used the language of differential forms to present the material. This is very cool, and something I find personally interesting, but he did it with no discussion of why he was doing it and with no connection whatsoever with other areas like, you know, physics. The fourth semester is a blur now because I can’t remember one single thing I learned from the course or from the professor. Incidentally, we used the same text (Thomas and Finney) for the first two semesters and another text (Shenk) for the second two semesters. I still have them of course.
  • Flash forward to my first year of graduate school. I’d not taken a course in ordinary differential equations  at UNC-CH because it wasn’t required for astronomy majors and my experiences with the math department had soured my desire to interact with them any more. So I registered for MAT390, ODEs, at UNCG. I was the only grad student in the class and of course got no graduate credit for it, but that didn’t matter to me. As you can see, I got an A. It wasn’t just an A to me, it was a sign that I really did have a brain and that I could use it in the proper environment. This was the first time in my life I aced tests in a college math course! There’s no feeling like that. The professor (Jerry Vaughan) provided meaningful explanations of the course content and for the first time, I literally saw where most undergraduate classical physics equations came from. But it also meant that something had probably been amiss while I was at UNC-CH because I had not changed enough myself to make any of this happen.
UPDATE: While sorting through some things at home I found my GRE scores from 1988 and decided to post them here along with the transcripts. To the best of my recollection, I thought the GRE was the biggest waste of my time up to that point in my life. The main reason I took it was because I had decided to apply for a graduate program at UNC-CH in something called “Educational Media.” Remember this was the 1980s and technology then was nothing like today’s technology; desktop computers were still prohibitively expensive and were not ubiquitous. This particular graduate program was linked to an internship at Morehead Planetarium, then still an icon and nothing like its present day shell. I remember the application clearly stating that no planetarium experience was necessary. I had been to the Morehead for a number of shows (I think it’s mandatory for all UNC-CH students to go at least once) and as an astronomy major the thought of working in a planetarium was tempting. The GRE was a requirement, and after getting my scores I quickly learned two things. The first was that different people interpreted the scores differently. I showed them to the professor I had been working for as a work study students since my freshman year (he was the chair of the geology department, and his initials are PDF) and he said my scores were “very respectable.” I took that at face value because I really had no other choice. Then I showed them to the professor in charge of this “educational media” program and he said they simply were not good enough to warrant admission to his program. That alone told me I had wasted my time. The second thing was that the person getting that internship that year was someone (whose initials are AG) who already had planetarium experience and this taught me to never trust printed program criteria. Near the end of my graduate program at UNCG, one of my professors (Clark) strongly encouraged me to apply to a PhD program at Old Dominion, saying he was confident I would be accepted. The application deadline loomed and I remember the grad admissions director (his initials were GK) kindly taking my application over the telephone at his request. Of course, I was later told that the combination of my undergrad grades and GRE scores rendered me unworthy of admission. Dr. Clark was surprised. This too taught me something valuable, namely that gatekeeping existed and still does to this very day.

So anyway, here are my GRE scores.

GRE Scores
GRE Scores
So students, I ask you to think about the reaction you would get from asking your teachers, instructors, or professors to see their undergraduate and graduate transcripts. Some would flat out refuse. Some would boastfully hand them over (well, copies of them anyway). Remember that we as faculty have unfettered access to your transcripts, and we do look at them for time to time to see if, for example, prerequisites have been met or to evaluate transfer course credit. Neither of this is in any real way an evaluation of what you know about anything, and it certainly isn’t an evaluation of your inherent worth as a person. I like symmetry, and symmetry dictates that you be allowed to see our transcripts with no excuses from us.
I will admit that these transcripts GRE scores have kept me out of doctoral programs. UNC-CH told me point blank that I would be wasting time applying to their graduate school because they would not accept me. (I firmly believe that if a department graduates students it deems unprepared for its own graduate program, that department is acting hypocritically and should refund the student’s tuition. Yes, I know…but still.) UNC-CH also told me that the don’t allow new graduate students to take undergraduate courses as refreshers when I knew of at least one or two doing that very thing (I know their names and where they now work as faculty). I was also told that none of my graduate course work would apply to any doctoral program to which I might be admitted. Only one institution, Wake Forest University, told me that my undergraduate transcript is the one that doesn’t matter and that my graduate transcript was all that mattered to them. However, I decided not to pursue study there. I have come to the realization that despite the privilege having a PhD offers, I would have been miserable in a PhD program. These incidents were my awakening to the political aspects of doctoral level physics in this country (some of it, not all of it). Apparently, it’s not this way in other disciplines from what I have seen and heard. Gatekeepers still exist, but things are changing. Many graduate schools no longer require GRE scores from applicants, and some recognize that undergraduate grades aren’t nearly as important as they have been treated. Alas, this is all too late for me.
It is very important that you understand there is no knowledge so sacrosanct as to require permission from any other human being for you to acquire, and do not let anyone ever tell you otherwise.
Finally students, I leave you with the assurance that your transcripts aren’t the ultimate assessment of anything about you. They barely matter, and matter in no significant way. Look at me. I’m where I want to be, doing what I want to do, and enjoying every minute of it. I’m not ashamed of anything, and you shouldn’t be either.

Comments 2

  • I came across this via a twitter link. Thankyou for writing this. I am currently in a masters program and suffering from horrible imposter syndrome. Reading this made me feel good.

    • Thank you for the kind words! Elitism is rampant in academia, but you must remember that you are not alone and that you can do what you are determined to do! Best wishes in your academic work!

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